Posted by: livinghappydaily | November 24, 2011

Happiest Time of My Life. . .Background. . .

Realizing how happy and joyful I feel day after day, for the very first time in a very long life, I decided to list all the experiences, people, thoughts and ways this amazing time of my life has come to be!

So many people and experiences are to “blame” for this state of mind that I live in daily. Over the following days and months, I hope to unravel all that has happened to provide the shift in my thoughts that has reulted in daily job.

WARNING! Do not read this blog if you are not willing to enter into a joyful life experience. If you apply some of what I have learned, you may end up happy as well, so be careful.

First, let me share a little background. . . .

I have not always been a happy person. Maybe outwardly I appeared happy, but within, I lived in constant turmoil, worry, anxiety and fear for decades.

As the oldest child in a military family, my dad not only thought to spare the rod was to spoil the child, but also believed my actions and misdeeds had a direct reflection on him as an individual and a father. So, like so many in my day, I experienced a very strict upbringing, often in trouble for things I didn’t understand or know. Constant performance anxiety and fearful thoughts of what others would think became a daily experience early in my life. I was afraid of doing the wrong thing, saying the wrong thing, and never knew when I would blow it and once again be in trouble. I had a nature that wanted to please, but in time, I gave up trying to please my dad and we ended up in a fairly contentious relationship.

Oh, yeah, and add the moving around every couple years to an already neurotic personality and you get a very fearful, insecure soul to deal with.